The LOVE of my life.

..Assalamualikum..

Hai! Hai!

I wasn’t going to write this post. I wasn’t going to write it because it’s about a topic that I’ve found so hard to write about that I’ve avoided writing.

I also wasn’t going to write it because only a few of you indicated that you wanted to read sweet stories about my husband. I get it. If you are in a bad place, the last thing you want to read is a story about someone in a good place.

But you know what? I’m going to tell the story anyway.

I am because I told this story to a good friend earlier this week and her reaction was, “Aww.” She didn’t say, “Really? With everything going on in my life you have to go and tell me about your husband being sweet.”

No, she rather enjoyed it.

So for those of you who would rather I only write about the times my husband screws up and causes me to plan every detail of his funeral: stop reading!

On April 16th 2011 I married the man of my dreams and everyday I fall more and more in love with him. I always thought when people said this they were just pretending but now I realize it is possible to love someone more and more everyday.

Even tho he can be shut off and a jerk sometimes, something about him still drives me crazy and makes me love him even more. I appreciate all he does for us and when things are going good he makes feel complete. We been married 3 year and 10 months.

Although we have our downs -"and if you can read my stories" you will see that- I love my husband so much.

So for anyone who has never been hurt by your husband, you are lying to yourself and if you say you have never hurt them, you are also lying to yourself.

No one is perfect and usually the person you love the most, can and sometimes will hurt you the most. We all made mistake. We cannot take that away here on earth. no matter what we are always tempted by the worst things. We all strive to be great people, great friends, great siblings, great spouses, great parents but no matter what we will fail at some point but being able to recognize it and move on is a great thing. We all want to live to our fullest and holding grudges on those we love, who have hurt us the most really keeps us from doing that. 

So today I am starting fresh. Seeing my husband as a perfectly imperfect person. None of us deserve the life we get in this world. We all make mistake, rather great or small, or somewhere in between so why not forgive and keep on forgiving, as undeserving as some of us may think it is, you could hurt someone just the same regardless of what you think.. And life is to short to hold a grudge and having bitterness in our life. I don't want another day to go by, knowing I did not love my husband fully because of my anger and grudge of something I have no control over. He may not deserve my love, but neither do I deserve his. We are still learning more and more about life and out marriage daily. that does not come without some hurt and bumps in the road!

This man is the love of my life, my lover, my protector, my defender, my hero. He has made me feel beautiful on my ugliest days, smart on my dumbest days, encouraged on my most hopeless days. He has loved me selflessly when I was my most selfish. He has remained mature when I was at my most childish. He has taken out trash and, rocked me in his arms when I was scared or sad. He has decorated my life with warmth, smiles, laughter, and optimism. He has been a devoted, unconditional, attentive, fun loving father.

Never even once he fail to say 'i love you' everyday.

whats not to love?

he is my sweetheart, how can i expect him to be perfect when i don't even close to perfectness?

yeah.. yeah.. sometimes we argue about all the things, well that what marriage all about..

as long as we love each other i think we will gonna be just fine..

pray for my happiness & my marriage okay? thnks.. 

lots of love

_the wife_

Life balance as wife, mother, employee and student.

Assalamualikum 
Haloo.. Haluu.. heloo..!

Yes, I know it's been a long long time i didn't update anything here. T_T

As a wife, mother, employee, and student at OUM, life can be very difficult.
Many times in person, I have been asked how I do it all.
The answer is simple: I schedule everything and write everything down. I have to or I will loose track of everything. I have two simple rules that maintain balance in my life and my family’s.

1. No studying until my son go to sleep.
2. Spend one full day with my family.

Those are my very simple guidelines. Without them my life would be a mess and everyone in it would be miserable. It is all based on my priorities. My family always comes first. My education comes second. My work comes third. My hobby (blogging of course) come last.

I am going constantly and I have times when I just can’t go anymore. Then I put myself first. I take a day off, sleeping, or go out with my family. Even if it is just for an hour, we all need time for ourselves. It just isn’t healthy not to. I focus on my family and work during the week and work on schoolwork all weekend. I have become the time management queen! Life sounds hectic but I am still one of the calmest and laid back people you may ever meet. I have yet to find much that will upset me or stress me out because I know things always find a way to work out. I have always felt there is a solution to everything and won’t quit until I find one.

Another important key is to stay healthy. Staying healthy helps maintain a healthy mental state. I also try to think positive at all times. I like to keep everyone around me enthusiastic and happy. I love people and am very happy surrounded by my family, friends, and co-workers. All of these simple things get me through each and every day. Sometimes it is hard but I just stay strong and keep my priorities straight.

WHY I CONTINUE MY STUDIES?

Because, slowly but surely, I’m getting the hit.

The wake-up call.

The persistent voice that keeps reminding me that “other” people’s problems are no longer “other” people’s problems.

And once you “get it”, believe me, you don’t think the way you did before.

You don’t act the way you did before.

Most of all, you’re not waiting to become your perfectly-actualized self to step up.

You’re just sick and tired of worshiping the problem and ready to be part of the solution.

Sometimes it takes this outrage to remind us that we not only have a choice in whether to play deep or shallow in life, but that life tends to reciprocate by giving us deep or shallow experiences in return.

So I’m putting it out there that, yes, I’m ready to play deeper.